I'm such an arse .
Never thought of the consequences before actually doing it .
Sorry , Sorry . I tried to change , but everytime i fail .
Im the cause of everything .. Now my biggest wish ever ,
Is that when i die , i can find a peaceful place to live in ..
And not harm anyone in anyway ..

Thought of ending my life .. Maybe thats why teens kill themself ..
Its just not worth it , one guy ruins a girl's entire life ..
I feel like im mainly just a heart breaker .. more than a friend .
Im such a loser .. I just hope i'm given one more chance ..
To change everything .. Change into a better man .. people would want ..
but .. i blew it too many times ..

This world is really unfair . Memories are kept and gone easily ..
I just want to keep going through what i've gone through during that monday [:
but theres no past .. theres only now and the future ..

Dad talked to me about this , he advised me ..
I listened & i thought .. Maybe what he said was right ..
' a relationship must have full of forgiveness .. if there is no hurt involved in a relationship ,
than it does not improve the feelings of the couple .. ' as i thought and thought ,
he told me to give up .. thr are other girls he said ..
But .. Dad dont understand .. there is no one else ..
this feeling is different from the past .. those girls ..
Shes just so special .. i dont care what other people think ..
i dont even care what my friends think that we are not compatible .
What i care , is that i want to spend my entire life with her and thats it ..
I really wish too .. but its over ..

Now my biggest mistake in my entire life .
Is my arrogant attittude , I will change it .
its just a matter of time .. FYI , my face is like that .
happy or sad . or whatever .. my face is really like that ..
I am a guy .. and i dont share problems with people till now ..
maybe thats why i dislike smiling ?

& to you , thrs a hidden message inside ..
i hope u still understand .. that i really do love u ..
just that .. our thinking disagrees with each other and my attitude sucks ..
hopefully .. we can be friends ..